Me!

Mei harus RELA!
Mei harus IKHLAS!
Mei harus KUAT!
Mei harus BISA!
ALL is WELL, dear..
Everyone LOVE YOU!

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper

SKYSCRAPER

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

[Verse 2:]
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

[Bridge:]
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

(Bagi kamu yg merasakan, kamu pasti paham dan mengerti maksud dari lagu ini.)

Brian Mcknight - marry your daughter

MARRY YOUR DAUGHTER

Sir, I'm a bit nervous
About being here today
Still not real sure what I'm going to say
So bare with me please
If I take up too much of your time.
See in this box is a ring for your oldest.
She's my everything and all that I know is
It would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side
Cause very soon I'm hoping that I...

Can marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

She's been here every step
Since the day that we met
(I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left)
So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad
I've got most of my vows done so far
(So bring on the better or worse)
And 'til death do us part
There's no doubt in my mind
It's time
I'm ready to start
I swear to you with all of my heart...

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

The first time I saw her
I swear I knew that I'd say I do

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

(lagu ini benar-benar membuat saya semakin menangis malam ini. pengen dinyanyikan lagu ini saat nanti waktu itu tiba :") )

Adele - Make you feel my Love

MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
The winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love

Adele - Hiding my heart

HIDING MY HEART

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped you off at the train station
Put a kiss on top of your head
Watched you wave
And watched you wave
Then I went on home to my skyscrapers
And neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
Away, yeah

Woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain
The morning rain
And though I wish that you were here
On that same old road that brought me here
It's calling me home
It's calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I can spend my whole life hiding my heart away

now

Saya bukan tipical cewe yang bisa dengan mudah mengutarakan semua yg saya rasakan.
terkadang saya mengutarakan apa yg saya rasakan melalui 'Lagu'
seperti barusan adalah contohnya.

Justin Timberlake - MIRROR

MIRROR

Aren't you something to admire, 'cause your shine is something like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallel on the other side

 'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'm here trying to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

 'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

 Aren't you something, an original, 'cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare 'cause I see truth somewhere in your eyes
Ooh I can't ever change without you, you reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time

 'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass, I'm here trying to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

 'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you looking back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now (show me baby)
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Coming back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are you are the love of my life

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

You are you are the love of my life

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

You are you are the love of my life

Bruno Mars - MOVE ON

MOVE ON

How do I end up in the same old place, 

faced again with the same mistakes, 

so stubborn thinking I know what is right, 

but life proves me wrong everytime, 

taking roads that lead me nowhere, 

how do I expect to get there,

 but when will I learn to just put you first.

I come to you now when I need you, 

but why do I wait to come see you, 

I always try to do this on my own 

but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.Can I move on.

When I awake it's you that makes me strong, 

and I know that you've been with me all along, 

so many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart, 

with you life is so easy why do I make it hard, 

oh taking roads that lead me nowhere how do I expect to get there when will I 

Learn to just put you first.

Hey!

 I come to you now when I need you, 

but why do I wait to come see you, 

I always try to do this on my own 

but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.

I get out of my own way, 

let you have your way. 

Cause I realize I'm no god on my own, 

I'm there for you, I'll sell for you

 I can't live without you. Noooo

I come to you now when I need you, 

why do I wait to come see you, 

I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong, 

I was wrong, I was wrong. 

With only you, only you, with only you. 

Can I move on, can I move on, can I move on..

Bruno Mars - Who is

WHO IS

Oh, I was perfect,
for the circus,
if she dared me I'd do it,
love makes you stupid.
I gave it up, but I guess it was not enough,
cause she never seemed satisfied.

I know I'm not perfect,
but at the end of the day,
who is?

She wanted someone that's perfect.
Well okay,
but can you tell me
who is?

  She set the bar,
just above the stars,
a rocket couldn't reach it,
but i still kept on reaching.
She watched me try,
at least a thousand times.

If she loved me she'd stop me, but noo.

I know I'm not perfect,
but at the end of the day,
who is?

She wanted someone that's perfect.
Well okay,
but can you tell me
who is ?

I saw something worth my future,
So wrong, so wrong.
In my mind I would tell you soon
But I guess I wasn't wrong

I know I'm not perfect,
but at the end of the day,
who is?

She wanted someone that's perfect,
well okay,
but can you tell me
who is?

(ini lagu selalu bisa membuat air mata saya jatuh tiap kali lagu ini terdengar)

Maroon 5 - SAD

SAD

Man, it's been a long day
Stuck thinking 'bout it driving on the freeway
Wondering if I really tried everything I could
Not knowing if I should try a little harder

Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The place that you needed to have
I'm so sad, saaad

Man, it's been a long night
Just sitting here, trying not to look back
Still looking at the road we never drove on
And wondering if the one I chose was the right one
Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The place that you needed to have
I'm so sad, saaad
I'm so sad, so sad

Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The place that you needed to have
And I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
I'm so sad, so sad

Naff - Dia telah pergi

DIA TELAH PERGI

Menabur bunga

 Menetes air dimata 

Dedaun berguguran 

Aku bersedih

Dingin hati terasa 

Separuh jiwaku menghampa

 Perih terbalut sepi 

Melaraku sendiri

Dia tlah pergi, tak mungkin kembali 

Dia tlah pergi, pilukan hati 

Dia tlah pergi, tak lagi disisi 

Dia tlah pergi ke nirwana

Mengingatmu, mengenangmu 

Nelangsa aku disini 

Kesunyian, kepedihan 

Mampukah terlewati

Sammy Simorangkir - Jangan Takut

JANGAN TAKUT

Selalu engkau bertanya, apa kau di hatiku
Mudah aku menjawab, kau takkan mengerti
Selalu engkau bertanya, besarnya rasa cintaku
Sudah aku buktikan dengan cara yang kau mau

Takkan berubah lagi, percayalah padaku kini

Jangan takut akan cintaku, semua ini hanya untukmu
Akan ku jaga rasa yang ada, meski harus korbankan jiwa
Jangan takut akan cintaku, takkan berubah sedikitpun
Akan ku jaga rasa yang ada, meski harus korbankan jiwa

Andai engkau bertanya, apa kita bisa 

 Bertahan selamanya, itu yang aku mau

Takkan berubah lagi, percayalah padaku kini

Jangan takut akan cintaku, semua ini hanya untukmu
Akan ku jaga rasa yang ada, meski harus korbankan jiwa
Jangan takut akan cintaku, takkan berubah sedikitpun
Akan ku jaga rasa yang ada, meski harus korbankan jiwa

Jangan takut (cintaku untukmu)
Jangan takut (cintaku untukmu)

Jangan takut akan cintaku, semua ini hanya untukmu
Akan ku jaga rasa yang ada, meski harus korbankan jiwa
Jangan takut akan cintaku, takkan berubah sedikitpun
Akan ku jaga rasa yang ada, meski harus korbankan jiwa
meski harus korbankan jiwa

Bip - Struggle (Takkan Pernah)

TAKKAN PERNAH

Ditengah keramaian
Suara riuh rendahnya dunia
Dan kurasa sangat sepi
Hanya suaramu ingin kudengar di kesunyian ini
Dan memecah keheningannya

Kemanapun aku pergi
Tiada tempat bisa menghiburku
Akupun semakin sepi
Hangat pelukmu ingin kurasa dimalam yang dingin ini
Dan memecah kebekuannya

Takkan pernah kuberpikir berpaling darimu
Walau kesepian menyiksa
Tak sedikit ku merasa lelah denganmu
Walau kau tak ada disini

Diantara banyaknya manusia
Berpasangan dan berbagi rasa
Aku hanya menyaksikan
Hanya dirimu yang aku tunggu
Sampai kini ku bertahan
Dan menerima kenyataan

Rascal Flatts - What hurt the most

WHAT HURT THE MOST

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do
Lyrics from <a href="http://www.elyrics.net">eLyrics.net</a>

Sammy Simorangkir - Kau harus BAHAGIA

KAU HARUS BAHAGIA

Aku sadari mungkin ini suratan takdirku
Kau dan aku tak mungkin bersatu
Walau hati trus menangis

Tak ku sesali semua kisah yang telah terjadi
Ku biarkan waktu menemani
Hati yang dirundung sepi

Maafkan kejujuran ku walau menyakitkan
Dan mungkin takkan bisa
Ku lupakan hingga akhir nanti
Ku lepaskan cinta ini
Ku rela berkorban
Tak mengapa namun kau harus bahagia

Tak ku sesali semua kisah yang telah terjadi
Ku biarkan waktu menemani
Hati yang dirundung sepi

Maafkan ku kejujuran ku walau menyakitkan
Dan mungkin takkan bisa
Ku lupakan hingga akhir nanti
Ku ku lepaskan cinta ini
Ku rela berkorban
Tak mengapa namun kau harus bahagia

Dan mungkin takkan bisa
Ku lupakan hingga akhir nanti
Ku lepaskan cinta ini
Ku rela berkorban
Tak mengapa namun kau harus bahagia

Tak kan bisa ku lupakan
Hingga akhir nanti
Ku lepaskan cinta ini
Ku rela berkorban
Tak mengapa namun kau harus bahagia
Tak mengapa namun kau harus bahagia

Here comes goodbye - Rascal Flatts

HERE COMES GOODBYE

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothin's on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

[Chorus]
Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

[Chorus]
Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and youre left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oooo

[Chorus]
Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oooo

nothing

malam ini, sebenarnya hati sedang tidak baik-baik saja. tapi apapun itu, saya akan tetap berusaha untuk terlihat baik.
malam ini saya mau kenalin beberapa temen yg baru saja saya kenal tapi sudah cukup akrab dengan saya.

nah, ini kedua kalinya saya main ke Jogja. dan ini pertama kalinya saya ke Alun-Alun Yogyakarta bareng anak-anak ini :D yaa, namanya juga Jogja. kalau gak jadi kelelawar rasanya ga seru. hahaha
ini nih lupa udah jam berapa kemarin keluarnya. tapi, bener-bener seharian diluar. angin malam reeeek.. suer buat perut kembung. hahaha but it's OK! namanya juga liburan. haha

ini namanya Agus. hahaha pembalap siang hari tapi kalau malam jadi cowo imut. hahahaha pertama kenal sih, saya kira dia kakak senior. haha

I Still Believe - Hayden Panettiere

Somehow I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he waits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one

I won't give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away

'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe, believe in love

I know what's real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for a while
With just one touch love can calm your fears
Turning all your tears into smiles

It's such a wondrous feeling
I know that my heart can't be wrong

'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe, believe in love

Enough to make miracles change everything
Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever when you fall
It's the greatest power of all

Oh I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe, believe in love

Yes, I still believe, believe in love
I still believe in love!
I still believe, believe in love

motivasi 2

nah, itu dia kutipan chatnya guys..
Kalian tau gimana akhirnya?
Si Dia bisa tidur dengan senyum tidak seperti hari-hari yg lalu. selalu terbangun dalam keadaan menangis. kali ini tidak ada air mata lagi yg mengering dipipinya.

 Dia bangun dengan senyum dan penuh harapan. dia sudah mengikhlaskan si yg terkasih itu pergi dengan jalannya sendiri. dia tidak galau lagi. hahaha
tapi, satu hal yg tak pernah hilang. dia selalu mendoakan si yg terkasih itu..

ya, dalam pikirannya, kalau si doi memutuskan utk berhubungan dengan gadis lain. itu pasti keputusan yg sudah matang dan dari hati toh? berarti dia nyaman sama yg lain itu. nah, kalau kita bisa membuat orang tersenyum kan seperti suatu berkat. nah, mungkin caranya membuat si doi tersenyum adalah dengan merelakan si doi mengambil jalan nya sendiri..

iyaaa.. People change but Memory don't :D
itu kata-kata yg mencerminkan suasana hati si dia..
"TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS"
satu kalimat yang menjadi motivasi besar buat si dia..
Puji Tuhan ya guys, si dia semacam hidup baru.. hhehe

Nah, kalau kamu mempunyai masalah seperti si dia tadi. boleh deh dibaca terus 'Motivasi 1' nya itu :)
mudah-mudahan bisa menenagkan hati mu..
saya cuma ingin berbagi kebahagiaan dan senyuman :)
kalau kata orang batak nih yaa "Molo Rokkap, ndang tudia i"
Jadi, Semangat aja guys.. Roda hidup ini berputar kok..
Sedih itu tidak abadi!
Jangan sia-siain hidup untuk menangisi suatu hal..
banyak hal lain menanti untuk kamu sambut. dan mungkin hal baru itu sedang dalam perjalanan..
So, KEEP CALM & SMILE..
setiap punya masalah, saya selalu lipat tangan, tenangkan hati dan pikiran, pejamkan mata dan berkata dalam hati "Aku Percya, Tuhan punya Rencana"
Life must go on, guys!
Godbless :)

motivasi 1

hai girls...
hari ini kita sambung lagi yaa..
Kita cerita kita kemarin full dengan airmata dan galau dan airmata lagi..
tapi guys, Puji Tuhan hari ini berbeda..
si Dia udah beda.. she's New, she's Smile :)
semalem, si Dia curhat sama temen nya..
mau tau percakapan singkatnya..?
dibawah ini bakal saya kutip :D

*blablablabla*
M : Pikirkan yg positif aja kak.. kata Mama ku, semakin kita berpikir positif, semakin hal-hal baik satang sama kita.
V : betul sekali, itulah kak, bapa juga bilang gitu. apapun masalahmu tetap pikir positif. apapun itu ikhlaskan. Maka semua akan dilimpahkan anugrah samamu. makanya aku selo-selo aja kak.. kan emang betul. semakin kupikirkan, aku yg makin sakit kan? belum tentu dia mikirin aku. trus gak akan mengubah keadaan kan kalo aku mikirin dia terus. No time for bullshit lah kak.. haha
M : setuju sekali.. ahh Malam ini aku dapet pencerahan..
V : haha, jangan galau lagi ya cantik.. ngapain pusing mikirin orang yg ga mikirin kita? buang-buang waktu. hidup cuma sekali.
M : iyaaaa.. sedang belajar untuk tidak galau lagi kaka sayangg.. su capek saya.. jadi gatot semua penggemukan badan itu.. hahaha
V : jangan disia-siain cuma ngegalauin orang yg buat kita sakit. mereka enak-enakan disana, kita juga harus enak" juga dong.. kita bisa dapat yg lebih baik. yg bisa menghargai kita. udah, semua Indah pada Waktunya kak. hidup ini seperti roda kok.. kadang diatas, kadang dibawah. gak ada yg abadi.
M : haaa, *terharu* benar-benar makin semangat aku.. iya kak, ALL is WELL. Relakan yg pergi, sambut yang baru. haaa, semangat buat kita! Kuliah jo asa hasea..
V : Suatu saat kita yg bakal tersenyum..memang gak gampang, asalkan kita mau dan berusaha. gak ada yg sia-sia.. udah lupakan masa lalu deh. gak ada juga mikirin mereka. toh mereka udah senang-senang disana. hahah
M : iya kak, betul itu.. dulu aku nahan" sakit sendiri sampe setengah tahun lebih. memang bener ya kak, Tuhaan itu memperhitungkan setiap air mata yg keluar. dan untuk kesekian kalinya aku benar-benar ngerasain kalau Tuhan itu sejauh Doa dan Mukjizat memang nyata.
V : Udah cukup air mata mu yg 3tahun ini.udah.
M : Ada aja pertolongan Tuhan itu ya kak. yg gak pernah kita pikirkan, itu ternyata nyata :) ahh benar-benar termotivasi kali aku malam ini. chat ini harus ku baca tiap hari. haha
V : Tuhan itu baik kak.. udahlah..nga sae bei. kau lagi sakit gini, ditinggalkan dia.ehee, tutup lembar lama sudah.
M : iya kak.. I'm new and I'm ready to do it! hahaha
V : Gitu dong. perubahan yg terbesar hanya ada pada dirimu sendiri. malah itu pasti ada. tergantung kita menyikapinya bagaimana. boleh sedih tapi jangan berlarut. cuma semangat dari dalam dirimu yg bisa mengubah semuanya. semangat buat kita cantiks.
M : Iya kak, pasti!Thankyou yaa
V : sepokeh, awas kalo kulihat tweetmu galau ya.. berarti anda gagal. buat dirimu sesibuk mungkin biar bisa lupa sama dia kak.
M : Iya kak, saya berusaha. doain yaa..
V : Mungkin masalah kita gak sama tapi kita PASTI BISA.hehe SEMANGAT!
M : Thankyouu so much :*
V : Semangat!

malam ini 2

  Dalam kesendirian dan kesedihan itu, sosok seorang Ibu benar-benar sangat menguatkannya.. ketika dia tak kuasa menahan air mata lagi setelah apa yang dia lihat, dia berlari ke kamar dan menangis dibalik bantal sambil memegang sebuah kalung yg tak pernah lepas dari lehernya.. Dia menangis dan berharap kesedihan itu segera berakhir.

   Saat air mata mengalir terus, tiba-tiba sosok seorang ibu datang sambil mengelus-elus rambut nya. kemudian bernyanyi 'Unang be sai marsak ho boru molo tung gotap holongmi' .. dia pun terkejut dan segera bangkit.. Ada perasaan malu ketika ibunya melihat dia menangis..

   kemudian ibu itu bercerita sedikit dan diakhir kalimatnya, ibu itu berkata 'Doakan yg terbaik terus untuk dia. Merpati terbaik akan selalu pulang'.. Ibu adalah sosok yg paling mengerti dirinya..

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dalam kesedihan itu, dia terus berpikir.. mengapa dia tak bisa lepas dari yg terkasih itu? Jawabannya adalah karna dia tidak bisa membuka hati. dia lupa bagaimana caranya menerima oranglain masuk dalam hidupnya. dia lupa bagaimana cara mendekatkan diri pada orang yg datang padanya.. dia tak pernah memandang lebih orang lain itu..

Lantas apa yg harus dia lakukan?

Hari ini, hati dan pikirannya benar-benar penuh dengan pertanyaan. tapi tak pernah berani untuk bertanya. sampai akhirnya dia memutuskan untuk bertanya. dia mulai mengetik dan meyakinkan dirinya bahwa dia berani.. ketika ketikan singkat itu selesai, dia membutuhkan 10menit lagi untuk benar-benar meyakinkan diri bahwa dia berani dan akhirnya dengan nekad dia menekan tombol send.

3jam lebih dia menunggu. dan memang dibalas. setelah melihat balasan itu dia menangis lagi. ternyata yg terkasih itu membalas dengan tingkat kecuekan yg tinggi. dia berusaha mengerti karna dulu dia juga pernah secuek itu.. setelah memberanikan diri bertanya dan dijawab cuek dan singkat, dia tersenyum dan berkata 'Tuhan, kalau memang dulu aku salah tidak apa-apa kalau akhirnya aku menerima ini. Tetap berikan yg terbaik untuk dia.. berikan bahagia untuk nya, demi aku'

Sejenak setelah percakapan singkat selesai, dia kembali membaca pesan. Air matanya jatuh lagi dan berkata 'Kenapa secuek ini sekarang?' dan dia menarik scroll ke atas, tulisan tulisan yg dulu sangat membuat dia bahagia terbaca lagi. dan air mata itu berurai lagi..

Apakah dia salah ketika dia berharap semua kembali semula sebelum tgl 07 juli muncul? tau kah dia bahwa kebahagiaan nya itu berasal dari yg terkasih itu.. ya, dia cuma bisa berdoa.. berdoa untuk kebahagiaan orang yg terkasih..


*saat kamu baca ini, ketahuilah bahwa saat itu juga aku sedang menangis utk mu. walau sebenarnya aku tau, tulisan ini tak kan pernah dibaca*

Malam ini.

    malam ini, serasa semua angin kencang menampar dan semua air terpercik keras dan membuat nya jatuh.. apa yg harus dia lakukan? saat ini dia hanya bisa menangis dan menangis dan menangis.. berdiam diri, dan berdoa. itulah yg dia lakukan setelah dia merasa tidak mampu.. 

    Adakah yang mampu mendengar suara tangisan itu? sementara dia sibuk menghapus sendiri air matanya. *sensor* adalah nama yg selalu dia bawa dalam doanya. tak jarang nama itu membuatnya menangis dalam doa.. sebelumnya dia tak pernah berpikir akan berakhir seperti ini. ketika dia harus merelakan orang yg dia sayang utk seseorang yg baru..

   Apakah dia egois jika mengingikan seseorang yg dia sayang itu kembali? ataukah dia harus menguatkan diri untuk melihat dia yg terkasih merangkul tangan gadis lain? Bukankah Kasih itu berkorban? apakah dia harus mengorbannya dia yg terkasih untuk gadis lain?

   Tiap malam dia berdoa, berdoa untuk sebuah jawaban apa yg harus dia lakukan. Bahagia memang ketika dia melihat orang yg terkasih itu bahagia. tapi bukan dia alasannya. Dia selalu berpikir, pernahkah dia yg terkasih itu memikirkan bahwa dia sangat gelisah saat ini? gelisah karna tidak mau kehilangan untuk kesekian kalinya.

   Tapi disatu sisi, dia berpikir apakah selama ini yg terkasih itu merasakan bahagia ketika bersama dengan dia? *kembali menangis* Ketika angin dan air menyerukan suara mereka sendiri.. dan dia merasa benar-benar sangat sendiri ketika semua orang sedang tertawa beramai-ramai.

  Apa yg harus dia lakukan?